The Waiting Game

"Patient" is not a word that has ever been used to describe me. Patience is not a virtue I possess.

I'm constantly on the move, and when I'm not, I prefer that it be by choice. When I'm delayed by outside forces, I get antsy. It's an uncomfortable feeling for me. I'm a do-er; I like to take things into my own hands & get the job done. Waiting on other folks doesn't work for me.

I hate waiting. Especially when the stakes are high.

Like now.

I had an interview a few weeks ago. It went extremely well. I want this position so bad I can taste it. It would accomplish so many things - get me out of my current position, get me out of the lab, get me out of my division of the company, give me more flexibility in my schedule, the ability to wear cute clothes to work & also travel. I WANT THIS JOB.

And since my interview & follow-up thank you notes, I've heard absolutely nothing.

Not a word.

And it is driving me crazy.

Part of my frustration is my experience. Previously, when I've been hired for positions (including the one I have now), I've known within a day or two of the interview that I was going to be hired. The one time I didn't hear anything back in a timely manner was when I applied for a position in Atlanta (when I was working in Orlando). I actually never heard a "no" from them, I could only assume I wasn't chosen when I saw the requisition posted externally a few months after my interview.

The other part of my frustration is the dynamics of my current position. Because the position I interviewed for is internal, I had to tell my boss. So now she's aware that I'm actively seeking employment elsewhere. But I'm not gone yet - so there's this weird dynamic where we both know I want to leave & I'm only biding my time. I've never experienced this before & it's a little daunting.

I know that I shouldn't worry about this. That what is meant for me is already mine or on its way, and if this position isn't meant for me, then there must be something better. I dig it. But it is also nerve-racking to not have any information one way or the other.

All I want to know is a yes or a no. Then I can relax.

Until then...I worry...and wait.