The one thing missing from my life...

Is discipline.
Definition:
n. - Training expected to produce a specific character or pattern of behavior, especially training that produces moral or mental improvement. - Controlled behavior resulting from disciplinary training; self-control. - Control obtained by enforcing compliance or order. - A systematic method to obtain obedience: a military discipline. - A state of order based on submission to rules and authority: a teacher who demanded discipline in the classroom. - Punishment intended to correct or train. - A set of rules or methods, as those regulating the practice of a church or monastic order. - A branch of knowledge or teaching.

I used to be so disciplined in my life. I was much better at following a schedule and a plan and doing what I had to do. I got a job and some money and I've gotten uber lazy. Its like I can't do anything, cause I have too many options.

In college I used to be up at 5 AM to be at work by 6 AM. I NEVER bought myself new clothes cause I had to worry about bills and rent. I hustled and did everything that I had to do, cause I was on that broke college student trying to graduate grind. Grad school made me lazier, but being a working woman has made me REALLY LAZY. I can't commit to anything. I try to set goals for myself and then I break them as soon as I set them. Ugh. I need to get my stuff together.