Blogging Was Easy When No One Read It

Sometimes I think moving my blog over to Wordpress was the worst thing I've ever done with it. When I was on Blogger, I wasn't really concerned with site stats, or hits, or even how many comments I got. I could just write & be carefree. I wrote when I felt like it, when I hd something to share or say, when I felt inspired. Sometimes I wrote everyday, and then I would go months & then come back when I felt like it.

Since I've had the blog on Wordpress, I've been so wrapped up in the "site stats" link on my dashboard. Its become like an obsession. I can see exactly how many people stop by, where they came from, what they clicked on, what they read, etc. And its drives me nuts. Part of it is because I feel like a failure - I've been writing for a while & yet I get no love. Part of it is because I feel like there are blogs that aren't as good who write crap yet they get tons of groupies folks hitting their posts everyday. Mostly I just feel like I'm way to wrapped up in what's going on with my blog, specifically with who isn't reading it & why.

I know blogging isn't a competition...but I still feel like a failure at it, solely because of who or who doesn't read. If I wanted to talk to myself I'd just solely write in  my journal. Its disheartening to put time & energy into something & to have no one appreciate it or give you feedback.

I need to do better. I need to not care so much. It was so much easier when I didn't care. I wanna go back to being carefree with the blog, & not being so caught up in it.